I’ve been sick. Enough so to actually not go to work for two days in a row. Absentee! Symptoms were flu-like with one of the gnarliest headaches ever, nausea w/ digestive “side effects”, sleeping a lot, feverish, yuk. I had to call upon the help of my dept. co-workers to see some things through and I felt awful having someone else do my job, but then again, i’m grateful we’re cross-trained and can do such. I am still having some gastrointestinal problemas, but hopefully those will subside soon.
Last night, my daughter had [an incredibly] selfish moment. I’m not going to get into details, but let’s just say it was obvious and I pointed it out to her and she’s remorseful now and has recognized how she behaved was completely self-centered and ridiculous, even for a 17YO. I slept okay, but I don’t know if she did. This will be a tough lesson that you cannot have things the way you want them just because that’s what you want to do. We had company over, company that will never be in the same grouping ever again because of the nature of some of their roles in life. It was the equivalent of a three-year-old’s temper tantrum, without the tantrum.
Anyway, I woke up at 6:15 a.m. Normally, I’d go back to sleep seeing I only logged six hours of sleep, but not today. I thought about things calmly, prayed, and resolved to get up and take a morning walk. It was picture-perfectly gorgeous outside. I took a one-mile walk, worked up a bit of a sweat, came home and made tea & toast, and sat out front on our little patio and looked down the canyon/meadow area south of us. It was breathtaking. Green and rolling with trees everywhere and birds chirping like mad… and I thanked God I was alive. I cried for some people that I am very fond of that face huge challenges coming up soon.
I took a shower. All of this before 9:00 a.m. Again, not my usual M.O. There’s always something not right: I don’t feel well; I’m tired. But this morning, I wanted to change. I want to change. I am no longer content with my overweight body. I am not going to question “how” I got this way; I know how. I just want to move forward now. I cannot let other people or other things keep me from just paying a little bit of attention to myself so I can be THERE for THEM when they need me. There’s an event I wanted to attend at 9:30 this morning, but I think I’ll end up passing on it and try for next month maybe.
Good News! Babydoll, her dad and grandma are coming out June 3 for a week for Breeb’s graduation from high school! Then, Babydoll will be here until July 7! A WHOLE ENTIRE MONTH! Breebs & Babydoll will fly back to SC together and Breebs will be out in the Lowcountry for two weeks. She’ll need the break.
Thanks for reading this. I hope your Saturday really offers some special moments.